Opus 1

I have a problem: I have more musical ideas than I know what to do with. I’m still trying to make my first piece sound good with Hollywood Orchestra. Meanwhile, I’ve mentally composed at least 4 other works that I’m itching to make audio files out of. I feel like a cashier having a long conversation with a demanding customer who’s holding up a queue. Only in this case, I’m the one who keeps adding shoppers to the queue.

It’s strange because usually, composers seem to have more problems with the creativity. There appears to be quite a few software-savvy composers out there with lacklustre melodies. I come up with melodies that I love, but then I try put it all together on my DAW, and it doesn’t sound as realistic or powerful as what I heard in my head. The software defeats me.

The obvious solution is to be patient and go on. I’ve only been using Hollywood Orchestra for a grand total of four days.

There’s another problem though. I’m getting bored. To be more exact, I’m getting sick of working on this piece. I like it, but I’ve listened to it so many times that I’m not even sure what it sounds like anymore.

I’m not going to abandon it, but I’m increasingly tempted to start a new composition, just to give myself a breath of fresh air. The rational part of me thinks that that’s sensible, since I have no deadline and no obligations, other than to myself.

But a part of me resists because it feels too much like giving up. There’s a voice in my head telling me that I wouldn’t be bored if I had more self-discipline. It’s the same voice as the one that urges me to finish every book I start reading.

Despite what I’ve written here, I’m not anti-technology. I’m just anti-new technology. For the moment, I think I’ll work on my first composition in short bursts and try not to get stressed over it.